It has been 5 long years since we last celebrated the day! The memory was still fresh what had happened 5 year ago which made me told him that I would never ever want to celebrate THIS day again. And I had never ever been able to get myself out of that since then.
After putting much thought, I just pluck up the courage to wish him and was surprised to have received a reply from him too. I guess, he could have been waiting to send the well wishes to me but I was unwillingly to open up over at my end. That was so wrong of me to just hide in the past and dwelled so much into it. I would never had the chance to run out of excuses as I would always come out with more to convince myself that I should keep on mourning. Now then I realized that what I had been doing was so wrong! It was so wrong for me to be living in the past, so wrong of me to shut my loved ones out of my life, so wrong of me to think that I was the one whom had done injustices but which was not the case.
I’m really so glad that someone really knocked some sense into me and really made me sit down and think about what damages I’ve done to all around me. Frankly speaking, I had never felt so good after I had decided to let go this heavy burden of mine! People may say that, I’ve told you long ago, but you stubborn fellow din want to listen, cos I wasn’t ready then.
Feb 14th 2006 will be marked as a special day for me as I’ve decided to come out of the world of guilt, shame & sadness! *Give a pat on my own shoulder!*
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